I haven’t written anything on this blog since January 3, 2011. Such long silence which is about to be broken! I will not try to waste any more time and energy on blaming Facebook for not posting often on my blog (though it is all well-deserved), but I will defiantly talk about FB, and about many other little things, so stay tuned!
Monday, January 3, 2011
Whew... what a year! One filled with changes, chances and surprises!
Last year, all by chance I was led to new paths and started exploring places I never would have taken seriously before. I started my journey through Astrology and Vedic sciences which opened new perspectives towards life and existence, went to an inner journey and met my fears. I have come to a conclusion that nothing is impossible, really nothing! And that the world inside is a hundred times bigger and more fascinating that the one outside. In the end I’m glad I took those chances and trusted my feelings.
As for the 2011 all I want is more of what I got in 2010! All those new experiences and paths to discover....
Saturday, December 11, 2010
I am back from the 10 day Vipassana meditation retreat. This was an experience far from what I had initially expected, for the better and for the worse.
It was hard, harder than any other experience I’ve ever had. The amount of emotional, mental and physical pressure was incalculable and so difficult to bear, a price to pay to get liberated from most-if not all- of the “stock of misery” as they put it.
Before attending the retreat, I did not have high expectations, was not going to make drastic changes in my life, certainly not expected to become a new person in 10 days. Turns out I couldn’t be more right! My main motivations were first and foremost the challenge and living the experience. Well, I did survive and even more I’ve never felt this much peace and satisfaction!
The meditation technique was surprisingly simple; Observation! Objective Observation of the breath and then sensations in all the body parts. With no distractions from the outside world, the mind gets quiet and quiet and in absolute silence, we plunged in ourselves. The observation begins. Dirty laundry is out in the open. Impurities, fears, angers, grieves,… all come to surface and then comes pain, pain and more pain and finally peace.
- Observing noble silence for 10 days turned out the easiest part of the whole program.
- Vegetarian food can actually be very tasty!
- If you keep your back straight, you can sit still for 11 hours a day or even more!
- Waking up to the sound of the Gong at 4 am.
- Having to endure chantings in Pali language (original language of Buddha) before and after meditation sits with painfully numb legs.
I admit I still have doubts on the technique although I did reach results far better than I expected. The Kundalini practice I was doing before including Mantra Meditation - which Vipassana does not approve and highly criticizes- has worked perfectly well for me for the past two years and I certainly will not be putting that apart. However I will be give Vipassana a fair trial. It is worth it.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
That’s it! I will be going on a 10 day meditation retreat in two days. It all started from mere curiosity and then to challenge myself to see if I can survive in difficult conditions. The next ten days I will be in total silence and with no contact with the outside world. Isn’t that tempting?
What I expect from this program is not anything drastic or fundamental. I do not want to become a new person or change anything in me. I look at this as an opportunity to grasp a better understanding of who I really am.
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Wednesday, August 25, 2010
In response to a question posed by a stressed out and angry student on why is that we were born in present Iran, The teacher said: “We are now burning bad karma worth of 100 years merely by living in present day Iran!” Its funny and we can be rest assured of burning even more of that karma luggage in vey near future.
For the most part of my life I was very anxious to leave, I am still but for the past year my attention has shifted to some more serious concepts and I have come to realize that life and all its misery (and its joy) is the same everywhere i.e. same restrictions, same obligations. There is no Utopia as a friend said the other day. There are better places to live and there are worse. There are better places than present day Tehran but there are even worse too. It is a complicated and making a decision is hard. I feel stronger that I used to be, able to “leave it all” at this stage of my life but still it is a very hard journey and even harder to stay sane and serene in this particular part of the world. With some significant changes in my life- spiritually concerned- I am feeling more and more obliged to write it all down for future record and also hoping it will also be a decent reading material for friends and whoever that passes by this page.
See you all soon here!
P.S. I have a blog here going on for some years now. I will try to keep that one going too but for the time being I'll just concentrate on this page.